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Trying to bury the things that I've lost, I've let go of my pride
I'm going to take it back with my own two hands
I can see the light of tomorrow

It seems as though you've had enough of playing alone
Are you reaching out with the voice in your heart?
Pressing my ear to the night road
The thing that I can hear is an answer
These reasonless thoughts
Are one pride that I'm certain of

Like a movie I saw a long time ago
I can see myself as I'll be tomorrow
I can't get used to "more than the two of us"
I can't even hang out with someoneJust reminiscing about "back then..."
I don't need anymore days like that

Trying to bury the things that I've lost, I've let go of my pride
I'm going to take it back with my own two hands
I can see the light of tomorrow

Who is it that decided upon my goals?
The road doesn't end here I'm running because I want to be strong

When lost, and faced with two roads,I choose the one that seems steep
It's all right if I'm in pain, it's all right that I'm hurt
I don't want to have any regrets
These reasonless thoughts
Are one pride that I'm certain of

Like a movie I saw a long time ago
I can see myself as I'll be tomorrow
Trying to bury the things that I've lost,I've let go of my pride
I'm going to take it back with my own two hands
I can see the light of tomorrow

Pride of tomorrow

I'm so proud

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My ex finally moved out of the apt. Who wants to party?

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I had the strangest dream last night where I had dreamt about Voltron. Weird huh?

Even weirder I dreamt it all like a movir complete with CGI graphics and all. Oh yeah I was a pilot too. Black lion all the way bitches lol.

That is the last time I eat firewraps right before bed.

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Not really but they were my last table at Longhorn's. Yup. Three professional wrestlers. Originally, I was told it was John Cena coming in. The only reason I stayed. But while these guys were eating, everybody and their mother kept bugging them. I just couldn't believe what was going on. It was insane.

I made $25 on a $135 ticket. Damn, learn some respect people.

EDIT: It was Ted DiBiase. Excuse me. I get confused. I dont have cable.

I met Leslie Jordan of "Sordid Lives" and "Will and Grace" fame. He was doing a show at a bar in Atlanta and me and Mercury happened to be at Blake's on the park. I was leaning over a table talking and someone comes behind me and grabs my ass. I turn around and there was Leslie just a smiling lol.

I also met John Rocker, the baseball player, before he went nuts. Shelly Duval, from storybook fame. Jeff Conway, Kenickie from GREASE, 80s pop singer Tiffany, Jason Hawke, porn star for FALCON, and i think thats it.

Because I was bored and thought it would be interesting to do. Leo Maxwell has always been a fix in my stories or as a model for most. So those who know my writings, the name should come as no surprise. If I ever changed my name, it would probably be to that.

BTW- The name Ryukotsusei I just liked. Never could explain why. But also, if someone picks up the other reference made here, I'll give you a cookie.
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Name: Leo Maxwell
Age: appearing mid-20s
Height: 6’3”
Weight: 230 lbs
Hair: brown, short
Eyes: Brown
Blood type: O
Species: Shinigami, Vizard
Body type: Muscular
Affiliation: N/A
Partner: N/A
Appearance: Leo normally wears jeans and shirts in the land of the living. Nothing fancy and keeps to himself a lot.

Zanpakutō: 火金属の戦っている竜 (Fire Metal Fighting Dragon) [Ryukotsusei]

Ryukotsusei is a normal katana with a red and silver wrapping around the handle and circular guard with two dragons etched into it. It is released by the command “Release”. The spirit of the sword is a dragon made of fire.

Shikai: When Ryukotsusei is initially released, its blade is turned into solid flame, much like Ryujinn Jakka. The blade can be extinguished at any point to allow for close combat. While the blade is on fire, it can slice through basically anything.
*Pyro Dragon- This attack is activated by thrusting Ryukotsusei into the ground. Several dragons made of fire spring up from out of the ground and incinerate the enemy.

Bankai: When Bankai is released, it is not an elaborate effect. Much like Ichigo’s bankai, it is a compression of Ryukotesuei’s power. Ryukotsusei is transformed into clawed gauntlets and metal boots. His power is compressed to allow for high speed movements and martial arts fighting. Shunko can also be used in bankai release but however, the kido is not visible but rather Ryukotsusei allows for the perfection of the technique.
*Dragon Aura- Kido is compressed and condensed around Leo’s body and allows for near instant regeneration and the aura can be released into a dragon made of kido and is controlled not by Leo, but by Ryukotsusei itself.

Powers and abilities:

Flash Step Master- Leo can cover great distances in an instant. He used to race Yoruichi but still has never beaten her but has come close.

Hand-to-hand combat

Kido Master- Leo is much like Aizen in the fact that he can perform kido spells without reciting them.

Swordsmanship

Vast Spiritual Power
Vizard- With his hollow mask, Leo has the enhanced strength, stamina, speed of an ordinary Vizard. Also, he can fire cero blasts. When his power is augmented by his hollow mask, he displays a primarily black aura with a tinge of red as well.
*Hollow Mask- Leo’s hollow mask looks like a wolf’s skull flattened out with the grin of a skeleton. It has black markings on the right side of the face that resemble Ichigo’s mask as well.

Background: Leo was originally a lieutenant for the 11th division under another Kenpachi (seeing as how the name is passed on to the current captain for the division). He excelled in hand to hand combat but his zanpakuto was unique in that fact that it was a numerous type sword (it being classified not only as a fire-type, but also as a kido and a combat type zanpakuto). Due to his abilities and prowess, he was transferred to the 1st division under Yamamoto. However, this was not the case.

He was ambushed by Aizen and was officially one of the first test subjects of the Vizards, approximately a month before the others were transformed. He escaped on his own and was able to acquire a gigai in the human world. He has no affiliation with the Vizards as a whole and has been know to dispatch hollows that are deemed to dangerous a threat. He also is able to travel to Hueco Mundo and has so far been undetected in his activities.

It's not that the sadness is cured
After the tears fall
I just feel that there's a coward settled in my heart

But I want to go on believing
The beginning of my small dream
My spirit is starting to walk little by little
While it drags even the pain along

Even if can't see tomorrow because I'm confused,
My love will probably search for the future
Tired of crying,
I am at the end of the rainbow, newly born

This town is always like that
Showing a vague reality
But I wish I could feel just a single hope
Yes, I wish I could feel it

People compare themselves to someone
And lose themselves
But things that are precious are in their hearts,
So they want to make them shine without making them dirty

If the rain cloud bursts because it's soaking wet,
We can probably meet the light that leads the way
Flickering in a puddle
The sun will shine on me

Happiness, tenderness
While the things we can't see spill and we gather them
Until they overflow someday

If the rain cloud bursts now,
We can probably meet the light that leads the way
Flickering in a puddle
The sun will shine on me

I took a walk in the rain one day on the wrong side of the tracks
I stood on the rails till I saw that train
Just to see how my heart would react
Now some people say that you shouldn't tempt fate
And for them I would not disagree
But I never learned nothing from playing it safe
I say fate should not tempt me

I take my chances, I don't mind working without a net
I take my chances, I take my chances every chance I get

I sat alone in the dark one night, tuning in by remote
I found a preacher who spoke of the light but there was brimstone in his throat
He'd show me the way according to him in return for my personal check
I flipped my channel back to CNN and I lit another cigarette
(Live version: I flipped my channel back to CNN and I threw away my cigarettes)

I take my chances, forgiveness doesn't come with a debt
I take my chances, I take my chances every chance I get

I've crossed lines of words and wire and both have cut me deep
I've been frozen out and I've been on fire and the tears are mine to weep
Now I can cry until I laugh and laugh until I cry
So cut the deck right in half, I'll play from either side

I take my chances, I pay my dollar and I place my bet
I take my chances, I take my chances every chance I get
I take my chances, I don't cling to remorse or regret
I take my chances, I take my chances every chance I get
I take my chances

I take my chances

As some of you may know, I have taken up a second job at the Cadillac Club II down the road from my house. I'm running karoake on Wednesdays, Shows on Fridays, and on every other Saturday I'm running shows and music as well for the other guy when he can't show. But, I need a DJ name.

I used to go by Dj Dareamus when I did Club 69 Radio, but it's time for something new. So everybody knows I was going to change my name, well, I need something for my Dj persona lol. Any ideas? I got a few myself but want to hear from you. Just throw some ideas my way.

Poll #1307465 Change of Name
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: Friends, participants: 13

What should I change my name to?

Now I've come to cry
Shed your skin to rest my naked eye and criticize
All that I implore seems to be one foot outside that door
Coming between me and waking

Underneath the corset of your mystery
Piece by piece, undress you from your history
I'm sleeping with seclusion in sweet disarray

You can go heavy on me
And I will not weigh you down, down, down
You can be steady and clean
I can take it heavy on me
And I will not weigh you down, no

Born unto this pride
Silence is something you can't hide
You can't deny us, oh
Nothing has been said, yet so many words have filled my head
Now they completely surround me

Tie the lines of honest conductivity
Caught between the center of our gravity
I don't have that much time to burn anymore

You can go heavy on me
And I will not weigh you down, down, down
You can be steady and clean
I can take it heavy on me
And I will not weigh you down

Underneath the corset of your mystery
Piece by piece, undress you from your history
I'm sleeping with seclusion in sweet disarray, ah

You can go heavy on me
And I will not weigh you down, down, down
You can be steady and clean
I can take it heavy on me
And I will not weigh you down, no
I will not weigh you down

That's right. My job is no longer giving me any hours. I have 12 all week and i've been walking out with maybe twenty dollars every shift. If not less. People are so damn cheap.

I have enough money to maybe pay my bills for a month. After that, I have nothing left.

Right now, by averaging out my money, even not spending it on food or what not (which I really have had nothing to eat for a few days), I'm going to be homeless come December 1.

I have no idea how I'm going to get by.

Kokoro no me ni mieta no wa wasurerareta sekai no hate
Yami no michi de kiita no wa watashi dake wo yobu koe

Nageki no tabi ga toki wo koete hajimaru nara
Kono inochi made mo takaku takaku kakageyou

Ai no na no moto ni
Ai dake wo tayori ni
Iza yukan senjou e
Kiseki no hana sakasu tame

Kagiri aru inochi to shitteite daremo ga
Kagiri nai yume wo miru
Hito wa yasashiki kemono nan da ne

Namida wa kitto kanashimi no mono iwanu kotoba dakara
Kimi no hoho wo ikuoku no kagayaki ga nurasu darou

Kibou wa zetsubou wo shiru mono no mune ni koso waku
Karenai izumi no you ni towa ni umaretsudzukeru

Ai dake ga kikoeru ai dake ga michibiku
Owari nai samayoi ni
Hitosuji no hi to mosu tame

Yuuki to wa kokoro no honoo da to ki ga tsuku
Ibara no tsudzuku michi wo
Hokori to tomo ni moetsukiru made

Inori yo todoke yo chiisaki kimi no mimune ni
Ten kara sazukaru kokoro wa tada ai no tame...

Ai wo daite
Iza yukan senjou e
Kiseki no hana sakasu tame

Ai dake ga kikoeru ai dake ga michibiku
Owari nai samayoi ni
Hitosuji no hi to mosu tame

Ai no na no moto ni ai dake wo tayori ni
Tamashii no meizuru mama ni
Hokori to tomo ni moetsukiru made
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What I saw in my mind's eye was the end of a world I was able to forget
What I heard in the road of the darkness was a voice calling only me

When the journey of grief, crossing over time, begins
Let's put it up high, high, towards this life

At the source of love's name
Relying only on love
Going now to the battlefield
So that the flowers of miracles will blossom

A life has limits, and anyone I know
Will see a limitless dream
For people are gentle beasts

Because tears are surely a thing of grief, an unspoken word
How many hundreds of millions of sparkles will wet your cheek?

Hope is a thing that surely boils in the hearts of those that know despair
Like a fountain that cannot dry up, is continues to be born eternally

I can only hear love, I can only be guided by love
In my endless wanderings
So that the earnest light will burn

I notice that the heart's flame is courage
The path of thorns continues
Until, along with pride, it burns out

Pray, reach, in your small heart
Your heart is gifted from heaven for only love...

Embrace love
Going now to the battlefield
So that the flowers of miracles will blossom

I can only hear love, I can only be guided by love
In my endless wanderings
So that the earnest light will burn

At the source of love's name, relying only on love
As the soul is commanded
Until, along with pride, it burns out

Count 1. It's good to improve
Count 2. It's good to rest
Count 3. It's good to think
It's good to be able to progress at my own pace.

Left behind in the flow of time
Impatient feelings are often being forgotten
It is a wasteful, reckless challenge, after all
Often saying things to that which is abandoned

Offense!! In the hard times, raise your voice
And get going
Offense!! Aim for the direction you see yourself
And meet it head-on

Rise up to the big wall
You don’t need to be afraid
In this human existence with no answers
I can pay back my confusion if I just
Keep my pace

First!! I counted, it’s OK to go ahead
Second!! I counted, it’s OK to rest
Third!! I counted, it’s OK to think about it
As I continue at my pace

Studying the truth of reason
And not understanding, we lose our freedom
Even when called a cowardly person
Take a step forward; that is courage

Offense!! Turn around, use the strength of your voice
And get going
Offense!! Bolster your strength on your shoulders
Now, look ahead

The map of the future is painted into the sky
Yet even now, it doesn’t reach
When the time comes that I stretch out both hands
I’ll be able to grasp it, and
Keep my pace

Offense!! With even just a big voice, it can be done
And you’ll see
Offense!! Aim for the direction you see yourself
And meet it head-on

Rise up to the big wall
You don’t need to be afraid
Even if it doesn’t work out and you run away
It’s not going to change

The echo of the first bell sounds
Now is the time to stand up
In this human existence with no answers
I can pay back my confusion if I just
Keep my pace

First!! I counted, it’s OK to go ahead
Second!! I counted, it’s OK to rest
Third!! I counted, it’s OK to think about it
As I continue at my pace

(I know I posted it before but it's the truth for me in my life)

JUST FUCK EVERY DAMN LAST ONE OF YOU!!!!!!!

I'M TIRED OF EVERYONE'S BULLSHIT AND ME GETTING THE SHORT END OF EVERYTHING!

I WISH I COULD BLOW MY HEAD OFF RIGHT FUCKING NOW!!!!!!

You know, sometimes there's just a song that just grabs you and even though this is in Japanese, it hit me when I read the lyrics.

Count 1. It's good to improve
Count 2. It's good to rest
Count 3. It's good to think
It's good to be able to progress at my own pace.

Left behind in the flow of time
Impatient feelings are often being forgotten
It is a wasteful, reckless challenge, after all
Often saying things to that which is abandoned

Offense!! In the hard times, raise your voice
And get going
Offense!! Aim for the direction you see yourself
And meet it head-on

Rise up to the big wall
You don’t need to be afraid
In this human existence with no answers
I can pay back my confusion if I just
Keep my pace

First!! I counted, it’s OK to go ahead
Second!! I counted, it’s OK to rest
Third!! I counted, it’s OK to think about it
As I continue at my pace

Studying the truth of reason
And not understanding, we lose our freedom
Even when called a cowardly person
Take a step forward; that is courage

Offense!! Turn around, use the strength of your voice
And get going
Offense!! Bolster your strength on your shoulders
Now, look ahead

The map of the future is painted into the sky
Yet even now, it doesn’t reach
When the time comes that I stretch out both hands
I’ll be able to grasp it, and
Keep my pace

Offense!! With even just a big voice, it can be done
And you’ll see
Offense!! Aim for the direction you see yourself
And meet it head-on

Rise up to the big wall
You don’t need to be afraid
Even if it doesn’t work out and you run away
It’s not going to change

The echo of the first bell sounds
Now is the time to stand up
In this human existence with no answers
I can pay back my confusion if I just
Keep my pace

First!! I counted, it’s OK to go ahead
Second!! I counted, it’s OK to rest
Third!! I counted, it’s OK to think about it
As I continue at my pace

My Personality

Neuroticism	69
Extraversion	71
Openness to Experience	63
Agreeableness	31
Conscientiousness	32

You often resist any cravings or urges that you have, but sometimes you give in, however you experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. You are an active group participant but usually prefer to let someone else be the group leader. You like the security of tradition, but sometimes have a desire to bend the rules and challenge conventional thinking. You are mostly a compassionate person, however you prefer to make objective judgments when possible, however you generally see others as selfish, devious, and sometimes potentially dangerous. You have a reasonable amount of will-power and are able to follow through on tasks that you feel you need to complete. You can be distracted however and have been known to procrastinate.

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You know, this is just about right on the money.

My ability to love fully and unconditionally.

I've been hurt so much in my life and there's not alot that can be done to fix the shattered pieces of the heart I have left. So I continue on in life. I've never been able to give all of my heart and probably never will.

It will take something to really impress me in order for me to do that.